Kinda lots rattling around today/tonight.
Already starting with a headache tonight. Not good. Slave! Where are my pills? Lol, just kidding! Me in a leather skirt today had me playing around a bit with my friends. i said to my bff, hmmm, maybe i am a switch, and she immediately replied, um no. Lol. Can you imagine? No way could i ever dom someone. The thought freaks me out! Ha. i can't even make a decision on clothing. This morning i asked Master if i could pick out my own outfit and i couldn't even figure that out! It took me a couple of costume changes.
What else is going on? Well lets see. i'm getting pierced in one more day. Little nervous. To be perfectly honest i am a tad bit nervous about the pain, which is quite ridiculous. i mean look at what has been done to my nipples. In all seriousness that is the least thing i should be nervous about. i think the thing that most bothers me is the person that will be doing the piercing. i'm very self conscious about how i look and then i get shy and try to hide. There is no hiding here. He will actually have to touch them. No covering up. Yikes. What will he think? Ok, that's maybe what is bothering me. What will he think? Will he judge? i hate being judged.
i'm also worried about not talking to Master for 5 whole days. i hope that i will stay busy and the time will go fast. We are just getting back to our normal and i'd like to stay that way.
Master and i have also talked about some other things today that will/may happen in the future. Like what He will do with the piercings or publicly displaying myself. The thought of the display turns me on. There is a new Dom that has contacted me on Fet and talked about what he has done to his sub to have her display herself publicly. He may have some good ideas. See what happens with some more chatting.
My research on self bondage has come to a halt. i cannot continue any further without experience. Perhaps sometime in January i will purchase some rope.
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